
The Birthday Girl
Ella's first birthday breakfast!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLA-BELLA
It has finally come, my baby is one year old. I just cannot believe how time flys. There were so many moments that I just wanted to hit the pause button and enjoy my little Ella. I just feel like there is so much I have already missed. So many little things I have already forgotten. I was talking about this with a friend and she thinks we were be able to have all things brought to our recollection, not just the things we have done wrong but the good memories too. I am banking on that with my little Ella.
Ella, has been a blessing from the start. She was baby brough by faith. I was very worried about what having another baby would do to my RA. Would it make it flare again, would I be able to take care of Kayt during the pregnancy and after, would I be able to take care of either of them once she came, how long would it take to get it under control again, how would I switch doctors in the middle of it all, what about my running? and on and on and on.
The timing had to be just perfect, so my body would be healthy enough to get pregnant but all the harmful medicine would be out of my system. I was so nervous about having another baby that I couldn't sleep at night. Scott gave me a blessing just before I went off my medication. After that, I knew whatever happend was supposed to. This may seem a little dramatic but there were a lot of unknowns and according to past experience, I was giving up a lot of what I loved, ie being active and taking care of Kayt. But I knew it was time. And thus began my baby of faith.
Ella came around just before my window of opportunity was up. We were so excited. I almost couldn't believe it was true. My next two doctors appointments were amazing. My RA doctor was stunned. The disease was in complete remission. I felt better than I had in months.
I still remember the first time I felt Ella kick. I was laying on Kayt's floor while she was going to bed. And there she was, Ella making her presense known.
The next test for Ella was to come at just the right moment. She couldn't come to early because it was tax season and Scott's graduation. As April approached Ella was the reward at the end of the list/crazy semester.
Ella arrived on April 18th at 6:30 am. 3 days after tax season ended and a week after graduation. She was perfect from the beginning. Her thick mop of crazy dark hair and her bright blue eyes. She weighed a healthy 8 lbs. 3 oz. My RA is still in remission 1 year later.
Ella won our hearts from the beggining with here sweet, quite little cry. She was so content to just be around. She still is.
I am going to write a letter to Ella, because it is easier to talk about her that way:
My sweet little baby girl. You are so grown up now. You are cruizing around like you own the world, sometime I think you really believe it. You have such a determination about everything you do. You struggle and grunt and try again until you get what you want.
You are such a tease already. A favorite game it taking a toy Kayt doesn't want you to and while she struggles to take it back, quickly grabbing another. I eventually have to rescue poor Kayt. You have very quick hands.
You love to talk. I love just listening to you, when you don't think any one is. You can say a few words already: Kayters, mama, dada, oughtohh, momomore, bye, hello, wauwau, ball. I really can't believe how fast you are growing up on me. It's like April 18th was the magic day.
You love playing hide and seek, peek a boo, and chase. You like to draw, and read stories. Especially the Elmo book, touch and feel einsteins, moo baa la la la.
You have the funniest cheesy smile that you do when your being funny. You do things just to be funny, already. You love to lounge in comfortable chairs. You love to dance and shake it. You love talking on the phone and saying Hello!. You love cheese. You love standing at the front door screen and yelling wuh wuh wuh as the dogs pass by on their way to the park. You love going to the park and swinging and sliding. You are an outside girl! You have to have two binkys to go to sleep at night.
You are such a pretty little girl. So many people comment on your beautiful blue eyes. I was sure they would turn green but they are blue as blue. You have the funnest mop of hair that you hate having done.
You love to be in the middle of everything and just to have fun. You are so happy all the time, laughing and smiling. I just squeeze you until you popped. I wish I could hold on to each moment with you. But, you keep on growing by leaps and bounds. You are a special girl little Ella Bella. I am so happy to be your mother.
Happy Birthday Ella Girl! You truely are my miracle.







































